Jan 4, 2016

thoughts before my scheduled c-section for our breech baby

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Having a breech baby is not at all something I ever thought about, let alone expected would ever happen to me.

When the doctor told us at 37 weeks pregnant that our daughter was breech something inside me broke. I had focused for months, during my hyperemesis, on the goal of birthing my daughter naturally (at the hospital), and recovering quickly to tend to both her and our toddler son.

Suddenly, that goal, dream, and vision that had been my shining light in the deep darkness that was hyperemesis was gone. The fear crept in. After facing the sickest eightish months of my life, I would also have to tack on another hard month. My doctor was not comfortable with a breech delivery. Something I unfortunately, and do to my naiveness, never thought to ask when we first met with him. It never crossed my mind that this rare situation would find its sneaky little way into our lives.

There we sat in the empty doctors office, with news that rocked me to the core.

I tried everything anyone told me. I saw a chiropractor, I did all the stretches, flips, and handstands. I visited the baby spinning sites. I prayed. I begged. I pleaded. I held tight to the idea of this miracle finding it's way into our lives, and granting me the ability to be right there with my son just like I had been everyday for his entire life. It never came.

Week after week the doctor confirmed breech… breech… breech. And, week after week I cried, ran home prayed, pleaded, begged, and then repeated the cycle of stretches, flips, meditation, cold packs at the top of my tum, anything to do the trick. There never seemed to be a trick, and instead a c-section was scheduled. Tomorrow is the big day. Who knows how it will go. Will I be the worse case scenario? Will I be the best? Will I be able to recover quickly, and be there for my boy and little girl?

Who knows… someone pass me a Coke. We're going in.

14 comments:

  1. You got this, mama. Good news is, you'll have her in your arms very soon. Good luck, but you won't need it!

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    1. Thank you so much Betty! It is amazing to have her here, and we needed all the luck we could get because c-sections are no joke.

      Hope you are having the best weekend!

      xx

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  2. I have a scheduled c-section tomorrow as well. I have heard that they are much easier when scheduled and not an emergency. Either way we get to meet our babies tomorrow!!

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    1. I hope your c-section went beautifully, and that you are resting and recovering well Ms. Carrie! I bet that baby is a beaut!

      I couldn't agree more about the c-sections going more smoothly when they are scheduled. We are blessed that way 100% for that.

      Give that baby a hug for me + congats!

      xx

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  3. First off, baby girl is preshy. Second, I hope you're thinking now that it's not as horrible in hindsight. Just seriously take advantage of all the help your people are offering. That made all the difference in recovery time between my 1st & 2nd csections, both due to breech babes. The silver lining, I got to have a vbac with my 3rd! I was so happy. Then my 4th was breech again. Unbelievable. God was in control of it all and I know that vbac was a blessing from Him. Enjoy that little sweet thing. I love reading your stuff. Keep being real.

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    1. Thank you so much Carolyn! I think she is too (but I am totally bias). You gave the best advice when you said take all the help you can get. It helped me so much and allowed me to rest.

      You are my hero momma! Look at you go 4 kiddos + 3 c-sections! You know what you're doing, and I should be taking notes from you!

      Thank you for your love and support. I am so grateful for you.

      xx + happy weekending + all my love to you and yours!

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  4. This very same thing happened with me. One can never plan these things, but the most important thing is our babies are healthy and here in our arms Congrats! Thanks for sharing

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    1. It is so true we can never plan our pregnancies and labors... I learned that the hard way both times haha. They are each so different, and we have to just roll with it.

      You nailed it when you said the most important thing is that our babies are healthy and here in our arms. Such a sweet reminder. Thank you momma for keeping me humble + grateful!

      All my love!

      xx

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  5. I had a c-section for my baby girl due to having a broken tailbone that never healed straight. I have to say, after being completely terrified and crying at every moment I thought about it, I just came to peace with it by realizing I just wanted to have her as well as myself safe and healthy. I couldn't be happier now <3

    I follow you on IG and Aida couldn't be more beautiful. Congrats mama!

    www.cherishandbloomblog.com

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    1. Holy poop! A broken tailbone? #youareastrongmomma It is such a great moment when you stop focusing on the surgery, and start focusing on the happy and healthy baby that is coming. That wave came over me just before the surgery, and kept me calm.

      Thank you for the kind words about our sweet muffin. She is the best!

      Thank you for following along Melissa. You are such a doll to have tagging along on our journey.

      xx

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  6. I follow you on IG and your baby girl is so precious, Congrats! I had a c-section with my little girl and the recovery wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I hope this is the case for you too! Hang in their momma, it gets better every day! :)
    xx,
    Stephany
    http://littleclosetdiaries.com

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    1. Thank you so much Stephany! She is my favorite little bird! I couldn't agree more I thought I would be in terrible pain for weeks, it has for sure subsided a lot more quickly than I imagined!

      You are amazing!

      xx

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  7. I had an emergency c section because his heart rate kept dropping. It was a painful, scary process but it has been 3 weeks and doing just fine. Just rremembr even if the outside is healed the inside incisions are not. Tke it easy. Congratulations! Shes bebeautiful

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    1. That is such great advice. I needed that reminder for sure.

      I hope you are recovering well beautiful, and congrats on the sweet baby!

      Thank you for the love and support, sending some right back at you!

      xx + happy weekending!

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